Hard to believe I started this blog a year ago. My intentions were to share my weight loss struggle, my interest in food and exercise, and some funny quips about my life. I believe I have accomplished most of this over the year.
Though I have to admit, my interest in the exercise/eating well portion of my life is getting dangerously close to my old, bad habits. I did well when I was training for the Quarter Marathon a couple years ago, but once that race was over, I had had it with running. The thought of hitting the pavement sent me straight to the couch. The only redeeming thing about running was it kept my weight and depression at bay. I did not like it, I did not get the "runner high" all I got was numb feet and aching knees.
I had lofty goals of getting into better than ever shape this summer but the heat was so bad here, it was difficult to find a time of day that wasn't close to 90 degrees. Plus it was summer, time to slack off, right?
My new job has thrown all of our schedules into new territory and though it is going well, I feel like I constantly come up short somewhere. Throw in the kids sports and therapy schedules and well, you will find me in the McD drive thru more than the last three years combined.
I am relying more on processed foods frankly for the convenience. I do like to spend time Sunday getting my meals ready for the week ,but sometimes I find that to be time away from something else I should be doing. Easier to reach for a box or something out of the freezer.
These are all excuses. I feel soft all over, mentally more negative than usual, and am ticked that my jeans are tight. I have worked too hard to fall back into a bad place.
I felt my absolute best when I was blogging what I was eating on a daily basis and when I was doing some kind of exercise. I felt better when I was eating way less processed food and took time to take care of myself. I don't need to be as obsessive as I was before about it. I don't have time to make it a part time job like I did before. But I can certainly take the time to make sure I am doing what makes me feel my best.
Starting tomorrow thru next Sunday, I will be blogging about my meals, my mood, and what kind of exercise I will be doing. Ultimately I need to be accountable to myself but sometimes, it is easier to be motivated if I am accountable to everyone else. I am weird like that.
Meanwhile, I have a bathroom full of girls getting ready for their Homecoming dance tonight. Look for pics on FB later. I am happy to report that the sight of them dressed up is not making me a sobbing mess like I thought I would be. I actually find it slightly comical the lengths they are going to. And when I say "lengths" I mean the false eyelashes, they look like Kardashians. Sigh.
Thanks for reading!
Cat
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