How was your weekend? Get your Christmas shopping done? Wrap anything yet? My answers, in order are: good, no and no. I am close to getting shopping done but need the kids to pick out what they want to buy for each other. There is a $10 cap and this is the first year we are having them buy for each other. Should be interesting to see what they think the other would like. We will get that done Friday night and Sat morning.
The frustration portion of this post is again about Youngest and his behavior at school. Last week was bad and today was even worse. He can't put into words what is bothering him and honestly I don't know if he knows. Is he not feeling well? Anxious to be out on break? What is it?? He keeps losing privileges and now I am thinking I should take back the DS I bought him. It was going to be a surprise since he had done so well at school, but now, I don't want it to send a signal that he is being rewarded for his bad behavior. I thought it would be good as a reward tool, but he still is borrowing our neighbors and has not been able to play it for quite sometime because of his behavior at school. Clearly playing it is NOT enough to get him to behave. What would you do? Would you be a hard ass and return it, keep it and tell him he COULD have had it had he behaved in school, give it to him anyway? I need some help here, folks.
This morning I was trying to remember what made my birthday so rotten last year. I knew there was something but I couldn't put my finger on it. Then I happened to look at my cell phone contact list, and the first person that is on there is my friend that passed away last year. On my birthday. I remember, quite specifically, NOT writing her passing on my calendar, saying to myself, "How could I ever forget she passed on my Birthday?" And here I had forgotten. I have not forgotten her, of course, and still keep her on my contact list as a reminder that we used to call each other and talk. But I am disappointed in myself that I had forgotten the day she passed.
Feeling bad about myself and apprehensive about how Youngest would do at school today (rotten, again), I went to work. It was Christmas hat day and though I was not feeling very Merry, I wore my most annoying Santa hat with a bell on it. Some of the kids wore funny hats as did the guy I work with (he is a 6'4" 300lb lunch lady!!) and my mood started to lift. As ticked off as I can be on the ride in, that place always makes me laugh. We had our staff Christmas party after work today and did a White Elephant exchange. I got to pick first and picked the oddest shaped gift I could find.
It was an outdoor, plastic angel that lights up! I think it was my friend's way of telling me it was "ok I forgot but thank you for thinking of me as often as you do". My boss was going to steal it from me but I think she could tell by the maniacal way I was clutching it, I really wanted to keep it. The angel is even in our office picture.
I am a BIG believer in signs, kismet, karma, etc. I think the plastic angel, that is now nestled between our reindeer and penguin, is a sign that it will be ok and we are being looked upon by an angel.
I think she fits in just fine.
Have a good evening.
Cat
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